Well hi there. I left you hanging, didn’t I. What happened to me?
It can best be summed up by two words: real life.
I had a whole series of posts written in my mind and a few started in my draft folder. I had planned to give weekly challenges for the social media fast. I was going to challenge you and myself to pick up the phone and call a friend, to write a letter and mail it to someone, and finally, to be a host. And I did those things. I wrote several letters, and I loved it. I called people to reconnect with them. What I didn’t do was “like” their status.
Although I dropped the ball here on the blog, I completed my social media fast. June 1 came and went without me glancing at Facebook. After that first week, it wasn’t hard anymore. In fact, I wasn’t even really drawn to the computer at all (hence the absence here).
Sometime earlier this week, I got on Facebook and deleted my personal account (the blog page is still up and growing – Rick is managing it for me). Not the temporary delete, where if you sign in again all your friends and pictures are still there. No, I deleted pictures and then permanently deleted the account. And it felt good. I breathed a sigh of relief.
I got a lot done last month. My kids and I studied the Sonoran Desert and then at the end of the month, we took a trip there and stayed with friends in Tucson. They boys LOVED it. They loved the desert, but they loved the projects we did together more. They loved painting jack rabbits and reading books and identifying nocturnal and diurnal. They loved my undivided attention.
I also met more people. I made a friend here and we’ve gotten together a couple of times with plans to meet again. My house is (marginally) cleaner. But the biggest change has been my mood. I’m happier. And my kids are happier too.
I have to admit though, more than the media fast has kept me from the blog this last few weeks. I’ve struggled to find the words here lately. By lately, I mean the last few months.
Part of me feels like this space has grown less personal. Also, the modern homestead movement is really taking off (yay) but is now filled with many, many voices, and I don’t know that I have a lot more to say right now.
These thoughts had been rattling around up there in my mind for a while, but I’ve pushed them aside. And then came my challenge, and around the second week, I got Calamity Jane’s blogging farewell in my inbox. Her post is a great summary of how I have felt about this blog.
We are in a different place than we were before, literally. I am a little weary of talking “at” readers and the interwebs. I’m tired of stopping every project for pictures. I’m tired of thinking of new things to share. I just want to live for a bit.
Since the beginning of June, Rick has given me a hard time about just up and abandoning the blog here, but really didn’t know what to write. I’m not going to stop blogging completely, but I do know that when I write, it is going to have to be something I want to write. It will probably be more personal, and if will definitely be less consistent.
So there it is…. no promises for future posts. When they come, I hope you will read, if they are interesting to you. I know that I will always write something, some where. In the mean time, thanks for following, and supporting. And if you are growing things, keep growing.
Now I’m off to study sea turtles with my kiddos.